I've only recently, in the last year, come to understand I live with c-ptsd. This article helps connect me to the ever-present emotions that are so normal for me, that I don't think others understand. I feel a constant need for relationship and instinctual distrust of everyone, including a distrust of my own judgment about who is safe and who isn't. The lack of security in my own judgment is a relentless push-pull between reaching out to someone and withdrawing.