Socializing is such a double-edged sword. It has huge benefits if you can both connect & maintain relationships, but for me I can rarely do both. I am a one-friend-at-time person. It’s impossible to explain this to people. With socializing I often feel like Why Bother? I know I won’t be able to/want to invest further. But just opting out isn’t practical. My relationship with people reminds me of my relationship with food: I have to eat, but if I don’t stick with a diet it doesn’t go well.